Vulnerability: is it a strength or a weakness?
After typing out that title, I stared at it for a solid 5 minutes. Which is it, Ophelia? My immediate thought was to say it’s a weakness. Most of the times I’ve ever been emotionally vulnerable, it’s left me feeling anxious, stressed, and ultimately heartbroken. Crappy and weak. Then I thought about it a bit more–I’ve been pretty anti-dating/relationships (not other people’s, just my own) for the past two years, and part of that is probably because I find it very hard to let myself be vulnerable. Vulnerability is a strength then, right? If someone can be so brave to let themselves be known, that must be a strength.
Growing up in a Chinese household makes vulnerability a weakness. Experiencing heartbreak makes vulnerability a weakness. Not knowing how to date and deeply relate to other human beings makes vulnerability a strength. Allowing new friends to get to know you makes vulnerability a strength. It’s like I can’t stop debating with myself.
Unfortunately, I don’t have a solid answer to this question, and maybe that’s a good thing. It allows me to explore both sides of being vulnerable, and figure out what it means to me. What are your thoughts?